what do you think would hurt you more? Your boyfriend having another affair or you having to urinate with blood in it? oohuhu.. the second one definitely hurts much much much more than the other. I was shocked when I felt pain while urinating a while ago. And my shock was doubled when I saw blood dripping from my most sensitive part.

right now, im still suffering from severe pain.and minutes have passed since i went to the comfort room. how i wish i could rip that part of my body so i could be free from pain even for a little while.

i won't eat junkfoods again. i won't eat salty foods again. never ever. i'd rather suppress my crave in eating those food than have this kind of pain. And i'd drink lots and lots of water. huhuhu..

and i'm dying to have this..

high and light weight.. hmmm.. hmmm..

pair this with tights and tunics and you'll look good.. wuhoo!

gorgeous ain't it??

This is the first time that i've been away from my parents, my sister and my baby. I never thought this could be very dreadful. I miss them so much that I want to scream till i lose my voice.

I thought I was strong enough to survive in this foreign country. I guess i'm wrong. I'ts so lonely here. I don't even get to talk to people because I can't understand almost everything they say. I'm a filipino, and they're japanese. Maybe this is also one of the reasons why I feel so homesick.

And the fact that my husband goes to work 5 days a week, i'm the only person who resides in this apartment. Of course, you could see cockroaches behind the cabinets, and birds chirping by the window but they don't help. There are other residents in this apartment but they rarely go out of their houses. I feel so bored in here I feel like crying.