This is the first time that i've been away from my parents, my sister and my baby. I never thought this could be very dreadful. I miss them so much that I want to scream till i lose my voice.

I thought I was strong enough to survive in this foreign country. I guess i'm wrong. I'ts so lonely here. I don't even get to talk to people because I can't understand almost everything they say. I'm a filipino, and they're japanese. Maybe this is also one of the reasons why I feel so homesick.

And the fact that my husband goes to work 5 days a week, i'm the only person who resides in this apartment. Of course, you could see cockroaches behind the cabinets, and birds chirping by the window but they don't help. There are other residents in this apartment but they rarely go out of their houses. I feel so bored in here I feel like crying.