i never thought i could miss my parents this much.. i miss the things we do together, the things we laugh at,and the moments of enjoyment with my child...

i wish i could turn back time and be with them again. but im not a fairy, i don't have magic so i couldn't do that. all i have is my memory, and all i can do is reminisce.

i am married and i live with my husband here in japan. our baby was left in the care of my parents in the philippines. so i've got no one to take care of or even to talk with since my husband works during weekdays. i roam around this apartment looking for things to do. trying to be busy so i can't feel boredom and loneliness. but despite all of that, i still find myself thinking of them. sometimes i cry because i miss them. i can't stop myself from crying and i don't even know why. maybe because i know the good things i've done for them are not yet enough to repay them.

my parents love me very much. but i took them for granted. back then, i thought they were a nuisance. i thought they were making things difficult for me, making me do things i don't even want to. i thought they were trying to sabotage my plans with my husband.

tsk..tsk..tsk.. then that thought was wrong. they did those things because it was for my own good.i was such a bad daughter. i regret i hurt them. i never should've caused them pain. i've done countless mistakes but they never stopped loving me and  giving me pieces of advice. and i am very thankful for that. i want to let them know how sorry i am. and that i won't hurt them anymore, the way i did before.

i've got the best parents in the whole world and nobody could take their place. i'm glad they're my parents. i'm glad i'm their daughter.

thank goodness i realized all my trespasses sooner than i thought, and i'm only 18..